damn

haha finally i get over it, not to think of it too much. so i better start a new life now. hurm okay the first thing i need to do is. get rid of this fuckin feelings and then i start to manage my sleep time which is not cool right now! always had the hard time to sleep early this day. kinda of. yup totally wasted now. hurm i think im gonna stop drinkg and then slowly smoking and then i will start making a lots of friends which means i need to go socialize more.. hurm where can i find new friends? HAHA btw i think i got bunch of new friends now. still wont enough hurm. and then maybe start to wear proper cloth. not for anyone else but just i need to change my life. its already a week maybe after awal muharam which menas the new year for the muslim. ye i think i can handle it. hurm but i wish someone will help me. stop the bad things that i always done. start i new and a better life. i do this coz i know he doesnt care a damn shit about me. so why do i waste my time and trying to make himm stay here while i know he will go away someday. he obviously just been a good friends though. well guys im goin to prepare my mind and wont take any action with this situation. yeah! go girl!