strong?

i used to be strong but now i dont think im that stronger, i cant manage my own life anymore. i need to find a way so that i can become more like myself before this fuckin bullshit even happen. i want to get back to my old life. where i know i can life by my own, where i can fit it with everyone i know, never get involves in any bad things. i just wish i can turn back time. but all i can do is now, just change. i need to set up my new life so it will be perfectly as before. i love myself more than i love anyone else. i want to be as good as i am back before and i want to look stronger than before. i hope there's light or somethg that can show me the way to goodness! hehehe