its not a very good feeling counting on someone that are not exactly u think he is.sometimes we over reacted about our own feelings. we have to be more careful about judging people,sometimes that person doesnt know how ur true feeling are. when they do, i bet he just means to helps us out. not that kind of feeling that u have on them. its kinda hurt when u realize it. but this is life,better hurt now than u hurt for the rest of your life.life can cruel sometimes.just go with the flow and you will find someone that worth the world.

i seriously dont understand at all. did he feel what i feel, or i just imagine it? could he just care or just being pity for my situation. am i to rush making decision? or am i stupid to see how he treat different like the others. hurrrmmm, its totally confusing me. i know my feeling but i dont know him. i know that im mad when he say that fuckin stupid lansi things. but i cant do anything, im not worth from him. im just his 'adik' like he said.. hurmmmm its frustrating and its so confusing. HATE IT!