am i?

am i a bad person who hurting someone that love me the most,
and even though i knew that im hurtg him,
still he wont walk away or left me aside.
but im just trying to life my live as im only 21.
i messed up and dont know what to do .
i do like him but yet i dont want to hurt anyone's feeling

its so confusing!
i know im just the only one who thinks this way,
not him..
i know him doesn't have any feelings towards me..
he just making a new friends.
but still i can see ure mostly like them both..