why?

its hard to get anything that i want?
why it is?
i not questioning it to god..
im just questioning it to myself?
why?
its because im not be patience enough?
or maybe i bring bad luck to all close to me?

im always be the one that everyone can count on..
but why can't i count on everyone?
just tell me why..
im always can't get what i want..
im always be the one who is last to get it..
pathetic right?