I'm so exhausted right now..
still need some time..i need time for my own..
i don't know what i have to do now...
its so confusing..so messed up...

still believe that my thought is real..
n still won't let him go...why!!
its so frustrating when u wait for someone but he won't show up..
no matter how hard u try...he'll never came to u...
u just have to let him go...i want to do that..
but i cant..sooo not coming true!!

i think we need to talk..that's for sure...
we need to solve this things out...
i really2 need that..


what is our status ???
who's that girl? who it's?
just tell me the truth...i just want to know the truth...
please...
what else do u want from me...i just cant get the idea...

i really want to hurt myself again..
stress!!
arrgghh!!
fuck!
bullshit!!
i need something sharp..
something that wont let me still breathing..
please end my life..
i just cant take it anymore!!

i want my childhood back..
mama help me...
i need u..
u never know what happen in this past 2 years..
life at college really really suck!!!
i want to tell u everythg..but i cant..
im sorry...